This song is actually the oldest song in the CD. I wrote it when I moved to Vegas after breaking off my engagement. It is about the dichotomy of your feelings when you are in a relationship that will inevitably end despite trying to hold it together. Each stanza of this song talks about contrasting emotions that exist simultaneously, the desire to hold onto something constantly mixing with the desire to let it go. Perspective teaches you that in most cases the dark side of those relationships will win out, and life teaches you that such things are for the best.
lyrics
It’s not like I don’t care
But its not like I do
It’s not like it was oh and you’re not like you
Oh and it’s not like forgiveness really means anything
I’ve been tried like a sinner I’ve been praised like a priest
And someday your road may carry you back home
But it’s not like I’m going to know
You’re a shell of a man, you’re something on display
You’re afraid that she’ll leave you you’re afraid that she’ll stay
Been so long in the darkness, that you can’t feel the light
You can try and climb out but its not worth the fight
And someday you’ll be happy you’re just not sure when or where
But it’s not like she’s going to care
I guess time can mean freedom I guess love can be strong
I guess hearts can be mended but sometimes I guess wrong
It’s not like I knew it, but it’s not like I’m blind
It’s not like I’m laughing but it’s not like I’m crying
It’s not like I won’t ever, think of you sometimes
And how we met in the darkness like some ships in the night
And if you’re smiling at your new lover yeah just putting on your show
It’s not like I’m going, it’s not like it matters
Alec Bowman perfectly captures the dark soil under the pastoral world of British folk with this collection of melancholy originals. Bandcamp New & Notable May 12, 2020
A trio of songs from indie rock veterans, “3ingle” showcases their songwriting skill with pared-back, acoustic arrangements. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 8, 2018
A new single from David Luximon is mesmerizing and atmospheric, soulful vocals alternating with heartfelt spoken word. Bandcamp New & Notable May 2, 2020
Turbulent indie rock from Levi Fuller & the Library that has the snarl of hardcore and the knotty meter of math rock. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 13, 2018